Condition

What do you want from me?
How would you like me to be?
I know almost nothing about you
I don’t know even if you love me.

I wish I could meet you
Look you in the eyes
I wish I knew if you love me
And have I set your heart on fire.

If you should love me, I’ll love you too
And even if you feel no more
Yesterday, today and always
I’ll love you if out there’s sun or if it rains.

More than human

What was God thinking when He made you,
Was He trying to make another God or why you are so perfect?
Was He thinking of stars, the moon or sea
When He made you a soul from them?

Was God’s wish to do something better then him?
Did he work thousands of years to build you?
How many years did he gathered so much color
That you now look brighter than the passion.

I think He took from every human being
A little piece of charm and with care
He build hour by hour second by second
Until he finally made a delicate half blood,
a human with looks of a god.

Sweet 12/24

A quarter of century has pasted and here you starting another. I wish I could be there for you, meaningless maybe, pointless maybe, annoying maybe, but there. My heart trembles when I see your face your smile your lips and your loving eyes. Yesterday was maybe too much but even that from love and even that felt good. All is and all does when you are around me. This feeling can’t be replaced by any other.
Happy birthday my love and may all your wishes come true. I love you more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

Take me away

this time what
I want is you there
is no one else
who can take your place

this time you burn me
with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away

I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let me stay here alone this time
what I want is you there
is no one else who can take your place

I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
take me away
take me away

I've got nothing left to say just
take me away

A place in time

This song is for you...for me...for us.

My life's 1 %

Six. Six more days to go. Six more days of horror. Why seems so long and why does it seem like the end is so far?
Where are we all heading and why? We’re trying to stay alive and fight…but for what? What is it that waits for us at the end of the journey? The answer? Nothing.
Human kind is made to deceive itself and the others around it.
Nothing is waiting out there and nothing can make up for it.
It’s just a long suffering waiting to suffer more.
There’s no such thing as trust and no such thing as pity or sympathy. At the end, at the bottom end is just a fight for survivor, and at the end every body will sell you if it would be for their own interest.
The movies with the soldier that doesn’t tell the military secret even if he is tortured for hours, and the stories about the parents that stay with their sick children and never give up...or the fairytales about the life partner that shares everything with you and never does you harm…let’s face it.
It’s all I our head. It’s just something we made up on the way to makes us feel safe and to keep each other in our own invisible shiny cube of glass making us feel we’re untouchable and protected from people’s evilness.
There’s no such thing as kindness so as sooner you realize, the better.
99% of the people in this world think only about themselves and will betray you at a bit of a second.
And then there’s …YOU.

You make me feel...real!

These days I learned that the only one who can make peace in my soul is YOU. Maybe sounds like a lie…maybe it is…but this is how I feel. Just when I thought I lost myself I found YOU and you made me find myself again. It’s all because of you…how ever sounds like flattery. Couldn’t care less.
Talking to you and listening to what you have to say…complaining to you and hearing your sweet laugh made me strong again. I don’t want to give up yet, not anymore, not now.
I don’t think I recovered or that I woke up from my depression, but I feel I died once and got born again.
My life is in your hands so please don’t break it.