NF

I talked to my friend today. I normally don’t talk to her but today I didn’t go out at all so I felt so bored. You know how I am if I stay inside. She talked to me about her boyfriend and that she is willing to brake up because he asks too much of her. We talked about money and nowadays economy and other things for grown-ups. She asked me how I was and how is my marriage. I said first that I am fine just that I miss what I left back in Taiwan. She didn’t get it so I moved on. I am trying to live my life and don’t think too much about Taiwan. She still didn’t got it so I just said “Hey I thought you were smarter than this. Do I have to say-IT’S ABOUT A GUY so you understand?” Then she sent me a shocking face and asked me what’s wrong with me.

What can be wrong? That’s the problem. Nothing’s wrong. Everything was perfect, right? I told her about how perfect you are for me and how nobody matched me like you do so far. And how you are Capricorn and understand me in every way. And how we laugh and that you have a sense of humor. She just advised me to forget everything and go back to my life. I think she is too afraid to live her life and kind of scared of changing. Too bad…I told her I expected more from her and that she is in my opinion NF. NO FUTURE…

The true things in life!

1. I said no to alcohol, but it just doesn't listen.
2. Marriage is one of the causes of divorce.
3. Work is fine if it doesn't take too much of your time.
4. To get born-free, to die-taxed.
5. Everyone has a photographic memory, some just don't have film.
6. Life is unsure; always eat your dessert first.
7. Smile, it makes people wonder what you are thinking.
8. It's not hard to meet expenses, they are everywhere.
9. The trouble with being punctual is that no one is there to appreciate it.
10. In a country of free speech, why are there phone bills?
11. Beat the 5 O'clock rush, leave work at noon!
12. If you can't convince them, confuse them.
13. Someday is not a day of the week
14. Whenever I find the key to success, someone changes the lock.
15. The road to success.... Is always under construction.
16. Alcohol doesn't solve any problems, but if you think again, neither does Milk.


! *All the things you want in life are either illegal, expensive, or married to someone else.*

Long time, no see

Oh, it's been such a long time since I wrote anything in my blog.
Maybe I missed it just like I miss you.
Even if many things happend I don't have many things to say.
The best thing was talking to my mom maybe.
She seemed so happy to see me after a long time, and talk about my hair and how it looks and asked me if I looked impressed like she said to look about Kyoto.
Before I went there she told me:"Don't worry there's not such a big deal about Kyoto. You will go visit temples you never heard about and see old letter written by old people not even Japanese people know. You just look interested and don't say their tradition is boring OK? "
We laughed about this and guess what? She was right.
Kyoto is like that.Plus it rains a lot. But I wonder.Was it bad because of the city? Really because of that?
I remember some shity things or boring looked so big and interesting in my eyes when I was with you. Remember the spider on the woman's scooter? And remember how taking the bus in Kaohsiung seemed so fun and lovely and sweet? In fact it was just a little spider and just a bus. But you being there made them so big and important. I miss so much sharing with you all the details. I miss being happy about buying and wearing something, I miss us matching our clothes and I miss caring about the world around me.
Oh I wished you were there with me.I think I have so much fun. I think Kyoto would have seemed 100 times more beautiful. Just like Kaohsiung or Taichung.
I also remembered your last words to me: "I wish some day I can go with you to some other countries..." Yeah, I wished too. I wished I could grab your hand and take you with me.
Oh, my love, how much I miss you...

Far, too far away, too long...

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long

So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

I miss

I miss...
I miss the mornings I wake up early to get dressed for you.
I miss how grumpy I was and sleepy and how somehow all the bad feeling went away when I saw you. Just a smile, a Hello and the day becomes so shiny.
I miss how I would make excuses to stay around you, how I would pretend I need some copies, how I prayed J was not there so I could sit next to you.
I miss how I tried to touch you just a little...but even that was enough.
I miss how I waited for the brake to run downstairs and I miss how sad and disappointed I felt where you weren't there.
I miss how I would sometimes teach and mistake some words thinking maybe how beautiful it will be if I could steal you and run to the seaside and watch the sunset together.
I miss when we ate together the old same meat with rice and talk some nonsense.
I miss how bad I felt Fridays when I couldn't see you and how much I waited for Saturday to come.
I miss holding your hand and walking proud with you in the city of freedom.
I miss kissing you in front of dousins of people and feel good.
I miss making love with you and watching your lips and your lovely eyes.
I miss every touch of yours, every smile and every kiss and all the love we shared.
I miss how I could never resist you, how even if my brain said NO, my body awakes from your touch and my heart needs to complete itself with some minutes of passion.
I miss your words, I miss how you complete my thoughts and I miss your care about me.

You said one day that you learned a lot from me.
I learn from you that life is not about being strong and facing the word on your own. If you love somebody you take care of him/her, you care when he/she cries, you try to help them even if with a bag or with cheering up, you laugh when she laughs and you hurt when she's sad. This is the love you taught me.
It's not always about 50%-50%. Sometimes when you love you take more than that. Sometimes even if you're tired you still ride her anywhere she wants even if it doesn't make sense,
Even if you hate it, you help her pack her bags.
And even if it brakes your heart, you stay with her to get a VISA for a place she soon will go.
Love is strange I say.
And also I know now...

Better to find love and loose it than never to have know what love is.

Loneliness is a sickness

If I only knew the mistake I would do…
Nobody knows until it happens right?
My love was right in front of me…
Could it have been too obvious to see?
Sometimes you can’t see the trees because of the forest. What did it mean this say?
We look for love and happiness all our lives and when is right there, at a quarter of inch…we ignore it. How would have known that the best thing in life is seating on a chair and with not such an outstanding outlook is typing some things and moving some stuff and looking exactly for the same thing – LIFE.
Who would have guessed that underneath a normal shirt is hiding such a passion man?
Who knew that behind the hard and cold stone he built around him is a sweet soul just waiting to enjoy life, to smile, to be happy and to give himself to the one who brakes the iceberg.
My babe is that person. A simple soul from outside. A marvelous heart from inside. Braveness is not about facing hard things braveness is about giving all up in time of need. Braveness is a word used by many but understood by few.
Being brave doesn’t mean to stand with the wrong person, brave means to have the courage to stop, look back, understand is wrong and say – NO MORE.
10,000,000 people are dealing with cancer right now. Hard I think.
But 2,000 of them prefer to take an operation in which they could die.
Why?
Because life with pain is worse than death.
They prefer to stop and die than to live a life with no taste no happiness and no joy.
Why can’t we?
Normal, simple people are braver than the rich.
Why? You already know.
Rich people are afraid to die. Afraid to loose possessions.
Simple people know the true meaning. Possessions are not what you earn or save or buy. The true things you have in your life are family, friends, people around you, the person you love and happiness.
Live your life like is the last one. Judge and do the right choices without looking back. Mistakes may be, but this is not the end. A new life begins every day. Making a mistake and saying “I’m sorry” are daily things. Even if a person dies in the same second another baby is born. Life’s circle never stops. Why should we?

It's time for us

I need, baby I need your love right now
And I want, baby I wanna show you how
C'mon, you know that we've waited long enough
And now it's time
Time to be lovers.
I tried, tried to be only one with you
And it's hard but baby it's worth it all for you
And it hurts, making me wait for you this way,
I can't go on.
I know we haven't known each other long
But still something so right just can't be wrong
Besides, it ought to be up to
Me and you.