Can we?

I wondered myself many times if we can do this. If a year ago somebody would have asked me the same question I would have probably said NO. It sounds bad but it's the truth. I never thought this could be possible.
Can people live with just a memory? Can they have a reason to wake up every morning knowing the loved one it wont be there? Can somebody pray for a sign to come and when that sign comes hold on to it?
In my mind and from my experience answer is NO. Why? Because we can't live without a warm touch or a tender kiss all our lives. How much we try to input in our hearts that we can do it and that we will handle it sometimes we brake. Sometimes we give up. And sometimes we fall apart.
True love is hard to find but recently I realized keeping it is much harder.
I found you by mistake I can say. Something not planned and in the same time something too good to not try. I couldn't keep my hands off of you and sometimes I think I was too selfish.
My life like I said before was missing something and I found that something in you. Maybe we both found something. What I am trying to say is that I am living my life and getting by like you probably...but...how can we live like this? I always said we are here and now thanks to you. You could stand with this situation. God knows how! My worst fear is that I can never be again with you. And if that happens ..then what? What is going to happen to me and you? Will we be friends and talk from time to time or we will end up hating each other or even forgetting about one another?
I'm not saying I am thinking about this but...it's been so long. I am working almost 24 h. As much as I can. I even got another phone that I answer: "Maya desu. Otsukaresama desu." (Maya can never been changed. That's one of the things that keeps me close to you.)
I am so far from you and I feel you far from me. I can't write you or talk to you. I know in my heart even after years and years if we meet we will just start over from what we left. I am sure of that. We will just laugh and talk like before and you will say "Hey babe nothing changed. We are same." And we will still make fun of people and we will still ride like always and kiss and hug and people stopping at the traffic light will smile to us and envy us.
I know sometimes what is in your heart. Sometimes maybe I don't or don't wanna know. I wish you could have somebody next to you to make you feel good and keep you happy like a substitute. You say nobody can be like me. I doesn't have to be. Just I wish you not to waste your life. Ahh, I know you are reading and thinking "Oh again she starts with this. Can she understand I dont want nobody?". Sorry babe. I just need to tell you how I feel.
Can we live just with some pictures and some memories? Can we be happy watching a movie that reminds us of us? Can we listen 24h our song and imagine we are at the beach or in a disco? Can we eat potatoes with cheese and start crying without a clear reason? Can we walk down the street and search for "blue" written in some places? Can we miss a dirty scooter and feel so happy to see one or a crushed one and tell the driver in our head "Good job man!!!"
Can we look at a fat girl and remember "fat ass" was the first bad word? Can we look at a business card that says "Stack" and feel sorry for not buying the T-shirt but in the same time feeling happy only 2 people in this world know what that paper means? Can we see a mirror and remember a love scene? Can we smile at every Language Center we see? Can we talk to a foreigner and congratulate him from the bottom of the heart when he says he has been to Taiwan for travel or business? Can we drawn our love in a glass of wine and feel the bitter taste of it?
Can we go to Starbucks and imagine someday he/she will come smiling and say "Hey"? Can we love a dog just for bringing back a memory and learn about where that dog was first found and what kind of dog is it? Can we get in a Taxi and when the taxi driver asks "Where to?" can we say "Tainan-Taiwan and don't stop for nothing?"
Can we buy cloths and don't wear them and wait for THAT DAY to wear them? Can we remember every single detail and still be angry we don’t remember enough? Can we? Can we really?
I don't know if you can but as long I can still feel what I am feeling when I am writing this... I will never give up.
YES, I CAN!!!!