Time

We have time for everything.
To sleep, to run around,
To regret what we did and to mistake again,
To judge others and to forgive ourselves,
We have time to read and to write,
To forget what we read and to correct what we wrote,
We have time to make projects and not to respect them,
We have time to make illusions and to oversee them afterwards.
We have time for ambitions and for sickness,
To blame the destiny and details,
We have time to watch the sky, commercials and an ordinary accident,
We have time to chase away our questions, to postpone our answers,
We have time to break a dream in pieces and to reinvent another,
We have time to make friends, to lose them,
We have time to receive lessons and to forget them later,
We have time to receive gifts and not to treasure them.
We have time for everything.
Just for tenderness there is no time.
When we realize we have to have time for this too - it’s already too late.
I learned a lot in this life – things I want share with you.
I learned you can make somebody love you
All you can do is be a loving person.
The rest…depends on the others.
I learned that as much as I care about something
Others might not care.
I learned that it takes years to gain trust
And that you can loose it in a few seconds.
I learned that it doesn’t matter WHAT you have in life
But WHO you have.
I learned you can use your charm about 15 min.
Then, you better have something in your head or charm is useless.
I learned you shouldn’t try to do what others can do
But do your best at what you can do.
I learned it doesn’t matter what happens to people around me
But what I can do to help them.
I learned however you look at a situation
It will always have two sides.
I learned that you have to separate with your loved ones smiling and saying sweet words
It might be the last time you see them.
I learned you can take it for a long, long time
After you said “I can’t take it anymore”.
I learned “hero” means to do the right thing at the right time
No matter the consequences.
I learned there are people who love you
But don’t know how to show it.
I learned when I am upset I have the RIGHT to be upset
But I don’t have the right to be mean.
I learned that true friendship lasts even from far away
And this applies for love also.
I learned that if somebody doesn’t love you like you want them to love you
Doesn’t mean that they don’t love you from their heart.
I learned that even if a friend in need is a friend indeed he will still hurt you sometimes
And you have to forgive him for that.
I learned that sometimes is not enough to be forgiven by others
Sometimes you need to learn to forgive yourself.
I learned how big your pain might be,
The world will not stop because of your pain.
I learned that the past and the circumstances might influence your personality
But YOU are responsible for what you become.
I learned that if two people fight doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
I learned that sometimes you have to make the person important
And not his actions.
I learned two people can look at the same thing
And see totally different.
I learned no matter the consequences
The ones who are honest with themselves will succeed,
I learned your life can be changed in a few hours
By a person that you don’t even know.
I learned that even when you think you have no power left
When a friend needs you, you will find in yourself the power to help him
I learned the writing and talking
Can relief a suffering heart.
I learn the people you love the most
Are the quickest taken away.
I learned that is too hard to realize where to cross a line
Between being kind, not hurting people and standing up for your idea.
I learned to love so I can be loved.

I wish I could be a butterfly, to fly away to a better place, to a quiet place, to heaven. I sleep and dream I am far away and that I have no problem, no evil can touch me and no human can bring me down. I am surrounded by flowers and sweet smells I am talking to God and dancing with angels. From far away a pigeon is coming, he is having a little paper with him. That’s my ticket to freedom. My ticket to escape. The ticket has no expiry date. It’s useless though, it’s just ONE.

Hristos a inviat!

Today is Easter. I can't stop thinking about God and how he sacrifice himself for us. I can't imagine anybody willing to give up his life for some other human. I can't believe how people in this world forgot to love him and belive in him. I can't believe I am one of those people. God is helping me with every step and it's helping us all. Even if we suffer and feel bad He is still there with us. Don't loose your faith and don't stop believing.
"Hristos a inviat din morti cu moartea pe moate calcand.
Si celor din morminturi viata daruindu-le."

It saids "Jesus Christ has rized from dead killing death with death and those who were in graves giving them life."

This is what everybody was singing in churches last night.
May God bless us all and have pity on our souls. Amen

Justice

If there's any justice in the world,
I would be your man,
You would be my girl,

If I'd found you first you know its true,
He would be alone,
I would be with you,

When you decide, dont let me down,
Coz there's nothing to be certain in my life,
And you've seen a thousand times
There's not much justice in the world

If there's any justice in your heart,
You love pity it changed,
Ease it into heart,
Oh no,
Why dont you remember how it feels,
Not to give a damn,
For anyone but me
I cant believe you'd be decieved,
Changing memories from truth to fantasy,
Where there's nothing left but tears,
And there's not much justice in the world

Just because he's wrapped around your finger,
Don't fool yourself with dreams that might appear,
If in time you'll stop and trust your feelings,
The truth is out there somewhere
It's blowing in the wind

If there's any justice in the world,
I would be your man,
You would be my girl,
Oh yeah,
If i'd found you first you know its true,
He would be alone,
I would be with you,

When you decide, dont let me down,
Coz there's nothing to be certain in my life,
And you've seen a thousand times
There's not much justice in the world
If I should lose you girl you know,
That theres not much justice in the world

If there's any justice in the world,
You're gonna be my baby,
You're gonna be my baby,
You're gonna be my baby!


For me it sounds like a song u wrote for me.

Finding you ment finding myself.

Can we?

I wondered myself many times if we can do this. If a year ago somebody would have asked me the same question I would have probably said NO. It sounds bad but it's the truth. I never thought this could be possible.
Can people live with just a memory? Can they have a reason to wake up every morning knowing the loved one it wont be there? Can somebody pray for a sign to come and when that sign comes hold on to it?
In my mind and from my experience answer is NO. Why? Because we can't live without a warm touch or a tender kiss all our lives. How much we try to input in our hearts that we can do it and that we will handle it sometimes we brake. Sometimes we give up. And sometimes we fall apart.
True love is hard to find but recently I realized keeping it is much harder.
I found you by mistake I can say. Something not planned and in the same time something too good to not try. I couldn't keep my hands off of you and sometimes I think I was too selfish.
My life like I said before was missing something and I found that something in you. Maybe we both found something. What I am trying to say is that I am living my life and getting by like you probably...but...how can we live like this? I always said we are here and now thanks to you. You could stand with this situation. God knows how! My worst fear is that I can never be again with you. And if that happens ..then what? What is going to happen to me and you? Will we be friends and talk from time to time or we will end up hating each other or even forgetting about one another?
I'm not saying I am thinking about this but...it's been so long. I am working almost 24 h. As much as I can. I even got another phone that I answer: "Maya desu. Otsukaresama desu." (Maya can never been changed. That's one of the things that keeps me close to you.)
I am so far from you and I feel you far from me. I can't write you or talk to you. I know in my heart even after years and years if we meet we will just start over from what we left. I am sure of that. We will just laugh and talk like before and you will say "Hey babe nothing changed. We are same." And we will still make fun of people and we will still ride like always and kiss and hug and people stopping at the traffic light will smile to us and envy us.
I know sometimes what is in your heart. Sometimes maybe I don't or don't wanna know. I wish you could have somebody next to you to make you feel good and keep you happy like a substitute. You say nobody can be like me. I doesn't have to be. Just I wish you not to waste your life. Ahh, I know you are reading and thinking "Oh again she starts with this. Can she understand I dont want nobody?". Sorry babe. I just need to tell you how I feel.
Can we live just with some pictures and some memories? Can we be happy watching a movie that reminds us of us? Can we listen 24h our song and imagine we are at the beach or in a disco? Can we eat potatoes with cheese and start crying without a clear reason? Can we walk down the street and search for "blue" written in some places? Can we miss a dirty scooter and feel so happy to see one or a crushed one and tell the driver in our head "Good job man!!!"
Can we look at a fat girl and remember "fat ass" was the first bad word? Can we look at a business card that says "Stack" and feel sorry for not buying the T-shirt but in the same time feeling happy only 2 people in this world know what that paper means? Can we see a mirror and remember a love scene? Can we smile at every Language Center we see? Can we talk to a foreigner and congratulate him from the bottom of the heart when he says he has been to Taiwan for travel or business? Can we drawn our love in a glass of wine and feel the bitter taste of it?
Can we go to Starbucks and imagine someday he/she will come smiling and say "Hey"? Can we love a dog just for bringing back a memory and learn about where that dog was first found and what kind of dog is it? Can we get in a Taxi and when the taxi driver asks "Where to?" can we say "Tainan-Taiwan and don't stop for nothing?"
Can we buy cloths and don't wear them and wait for THAT DAY to wear them? Can we remember every single detail and still be angry we don’t remember enough? Can we? Can we really?
I don't know if you can but as long I can still feel what I am feeling when I am writing this... I will never give up.
YES, I CAN!!!!